Is there a place for me?

[Linadae]

Only thing he said was that I was ranting too much.

This might have been the issue. People don't like to be around others who tend to remain in extremes. No one wants to be around someone who is always angry or always sad. And while I know you said you don't want to have to alter your behavior to try to fit in with people, unfortunately...that's how fitting in works. We all have to alter our behaviors in one way or another in order to get along with others. Often we're not aware we're even doing it. If one is incapable or choose not to make the minor changes necessary to fit in with a group, then perhaps a group based game isn't the sort of game one should consider playing?