Same - although I am trying to stop worrying about what others think of me/my performance.
Saying that, much like you, I had someone whom I thought was a friend say this to me once (on Discord):
Which admittedly hurt, because it's not as if I wasn't trying - I
really was. Needless to say I'm no longer friends with that person.
I'm, arguably, marginally better at the game now then I was at that time but that wasn't the only time someone judged my performance and it led to my concern about being a burden to any team I join.