One of the reasons I moved was to get over things I had happened to there, that also got me into deep depression and suicidal tendency.

But right now on this server I barely know only few people, and I think I'm bothering them when asking to do stuff like roulettes as they mostly never join.

The FC I randomly joined but wasn't really into it was dead when I returned, the last person online was 45 days ago or something so I left it.

It's hard to join already formed server society, I feel like a third party who just there while most of the players already only live in their closed communities that circles around people knowing each other.