Why do people avoid getting better at the game?

[Carin-Eri]

It isn't necessarily avoidance in all cases.

I've been playing since December 2021 and whilst I'd say I've probably improved over that time, I'm still not where I feel I should be for someone who has been playing for as long as I have.

And I will say that it's NOT for want of trying. I've worked my ass off learning rotations with the jobs I've chosen and have a fairly good grasp of the ones I've learnt (still haven't really tried healing and have only dipped my toe into Tanking) but despite that I seem to have an absolutely appalling memory for mechanics. No matter how many times I've played *enter name of content here* I either forget the mechanics, make stupid mistakes or simply react to them too slowly and end up tanking the floor.

I don't know - perhaps one of these days something will click and I'll suddenly stop being so useless where those issues are concerned, and again - it isn't that I don't try - but I do still feel like my performance shouldn't really be where it is at this point and I could understand if someone were to think that I fall into the subject category of this thread.