Confessions of a Toxic Elitist

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Kaiva's the one despairing over what FFLogs has done to them. All the fun they had in game somehow just gets ignored because of numbers on a website.

Kaiva *asked* for her DPS. No one called her out. No one pointed it out. No one even mentioned it until she asked what it was, and she wasn't happy with the numbers that were provided. She said so in the post immediately above yours.

My peers have been pretty supportive - in fact, it wasn't really an issue with them because I'm not playing horribly. But looking at my logs (I'm on PS4, so I can't parse myself, otherwise, I'd have more than what's uploaded), I can tell I'm not pulling my weight. I haven't had anybody really call me out on my DPS, but the thing with me is that I've come to hold myself to a high standard. I don't look to other party members to push their DPS, because in Savage raiding, since I don't have a static, the only thing I really care as far as the party goes is that we all get the clear as smoothly as possible. As far as DPS goes when I'm playing SMN, I care that I'm only pulling my weight DPS-wise, which I have not been.

I wouldn't say it's so much as that I'm not enjoying it, but rather, I have a lot of pride. Now, to be fair, I have no idea what kind of numbers I've been pulling lately because none of my logs have been posted since March 7th. But the DPS numbers are similar in the normal Sigmascape fights that have been uploaded recently. So it kinda screws with me that I've been wanting a stronger player base when I myself have been playing far below what is considered average. A poster above you said that this bout of depression was deserved, and perhaps that might be true. I admit that I was completely in the wrong.

But I don't personally judge others parses...never have. Not saying anybody here said that I was, just providing extra clarification.

Some people are competitive and want to improve. I'm not sure where you get the authority to dictate how they should or should not play the game when you weren't even in the group and aren't involved at all.

Some person literally told them to be quiet over how they ranked compared to other players.

Who was that, exactly? Go ahead, I'll wait.

Which is toxic?

Well, one person posts about an experience where they weren't happy with their own performance. A bunch of people post supportive things. You then show up and call people morons. So remind me again, where is the toxic behavior here, aside from you calling people morons.