I mained SCH back in Heavensward but near the end of it, when I reformed my static, I decided I needed a break and went caster. I loved BLM. It was great. It wasn't meta, which was a little disappointing, but the tier was so stupid and people's numbers could be so ridiculously high due to op AST balance that it didn't really matter.
Now, well, the tier is so easy that it still doesn't matter in a way, but it's getting increasingly disappointing that casters are still not relevant to the meta. I did msq as BLM but then picked up RDM in time for Omega savage and didn't have a chance to look back. RDM is so great for prog. You just dish out raises and manashift your healers like it's nothing.
RDM's personal dps is not as good as the other two casters though so since my group wants start getting serious about speedkills, it was suggested I go back to BLM because their high potential dps outweighs RDM's dps and embolden. Initially I was excited for this because I've wanted to go back to BLM for a while, but held myself back for so many weeks because "I don't have enough sps with RDM gear", "my static wouldn't want to wait around for me to plan out CDs and cater to turret playstyle for certain mechanics" and "I don't want people to complain about no embolden or raises"...
Now I feel guilty. I have more sps, got the genji staff, I'm pretty much ready to go and did a few fights on BLM to get back into the practice of it. But I feel guilty because even though in a speedkill context it's better than RDM, it's still not good enough. On average BLM does not do as much as SAM in practice, even though in theory people love to say it does. They're both in the same boat, anyways: their dps doesn't justify their lack of utility. Each time I think about how I'm going to be playing BLM for my group, it ends with "I should play SMN even though I hate it, because their dps can be just as good as BLM, and in fact it's only getting better in 4.1 because they are getting some QoL adjustments and buffs/more utility", or "I should level and play MCH even though I may not like it either because it's meta".
I remember there was some comment from the devs (back when BRD and MCH were kinda bad/clunky at the beginning of HW) that "ranged shouldn't do as much damage because they have utility"... it's why their tp/mp regens nerfed their damage, it's why their weapons had lower damage, why they had cast times added to their skills, etc.
I don't believe that's even a sound argument as by the end of HW, their personal dps AND their utility/raid buffs were obscene. And they are going down that path again in SB, it seems.
Sure, it's the deep end game, it would be better if I was more casual and played BLM just to enjoy myself, because it's a game, and you're supposed to have fun, and other things like that. But I am also part of a group that is serious about optimizing, and even though my team mates are understanding and confident in my abilities, I still feel like I am letting them down and holding them back by not playing SMN or BRD/MCH.