Quote Originally Posted by bswpayton View Post
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And you know what? That's cool.

For me, whose very first experience to a speedrun was queuing in with a garuda weapon in vanya, having a warrior ask me is it cool to speedrun, explained to me what a speedrun was and noticing my gear was, let's face it, terrible... I still wanted to give it a go. He told me what to do. I remember shaking, thinking oh man, I'm going to mess this up so hard and we're gonna wipe, it'll be all my fault, I'll get yelled at (yeah, I'm actually a really anxious person). We didn't wipe! You know what? It was fun! It was so scary doing it the first time, but it was fun!

Truth be told, if I hadn't had that experience, I'd have probably shied away from speedruns and full pulls. I can't blame others for not even wanting to attempt it when so many become incredibly toxic to others for failing to perform to their standards, made worse with a wipe. That's why, even though I prefer large pulls, I don't go on a raging tirade or make the run more difficult should the group decide to do small pulls.