I've been silently watching this thread, and while a lot of people in this thread have made good points already and I don't feel like retreading on it myself...
I want to say, for someone who has already self-admitted to being sidetracked (and is clearly responsible for sidetracking the entire thread into being purely a parser debate rather than one involving ego VS personal improvement), you seem quite adamant about continuing this distraction yourself. Self-awareness is useless without realizing that shame goes along with it. It is what it is.