It's not going anywhere, you know. You are only taking it in this way by yourself actually. Perhaps because you aren't in a content made for you, I mean, especially if you still feel some pressure after all your time around. Or just not with the right persons.
You don't want to change the world, but you want to change the actual meta, so... The game itself. Then, yeah, you want to change the world somehow. ^^
We could take Dark Souls as example : I have a friend who never beat the tutorial boss from DSIII, she gave up after many tries because it was too stressful and frustrating for her, despite the fact that she really wanted to know the story, its world, and met the characters of it. But she just failed. Does it mean the game itself was badly designed? Or that we should ask for changes? Because real life can be harsh, we have to remove all of the challenge from any games? I don't think so honestly. It's the same for the savage raid in FFXIV. They aren't made for everyone ; and everyone has to accept it.
I mean, it's like PvP in FFXIV. I badly suck at it, and won't get any of the rewards from it, even if I would love them... But eh... I have to deal with it. I'm not that special person who can get everything from everwhere.
Then stop hitting your head on your wall for nothing. Some contents are made for specific players. I mean, you have the choice. Don't try too hard to be part of something if you can't handle it (because of the pressure, or other expectations). You have to accept it too. Unfortunately, we can't have everything. :/
You can work on it, and accept the actual meta, but you can't ask for changes only because you don't feel very comfortable about it.
I wasn't saying you should play via the party finder, but that you should build your own static group with people who share the same expectations/objectives/etc. Trust me, it would fix every issues that you have with the actual game. Give it a try! Even here, on this forum. Just clearly write what you want in your team, i'm sure you'll find people willing to join you.
I don't know how to take the first part of your sentence. ^^;
And no, we didn't even get a clear. We tried to be really patient and very comprehensive, but it has never worked. Because we didn't have the same goals after all, even if they all joined the group via the same recruitment (so they all knew what we expected from them). So... Yeah. That's also why i'm telling you to find a group with the exact same wishes than you.
Actually, I do. Or at least, I believe. But... Thanks.
To be honest... I'm totally lost about this... I mean, the answer of all her problems is so simple. '-'