I had a moment in Expert Roulette today. The Fell Court of Troia. Had a SMN, RPR, and WAR. The WAR had so much healing that they just kept on using Nascent Flash on me and I didn't need to heal jack squat. I felt terrible. I felt useless. I wanted to literally get out of there asap. All I did was DoT and spam my AoE, or spam my single target attack during boss.
The party members cheered on how fast the run was. I was literally dying inside on how useless I felt as a healer. I had the urge to just quit the dungeon midway because I really didn't need to cast a single heal at all, other than feeling like I'm pretending to do something with my role. I felt like a leech to this party. I usually just brush this feeling off and telling myself this is normal due to gear ilvls, but when the WAR starts using Nascent Flash on me even when everyone was topped off... burning their cds for no apparent reason... and I still didn't need to heal.. it felt disgusting.
I felt disgusting.
I don't ever want to touch Expert Roulette as a healer ever again. I need to take a break from the role.