I am going to say something unpopular . . .

[Awha]

I get what you are saying, though as I mentioned is it really wrong to not expect accommodations to be made by total strangers because one may have IRL factors that may impact how they play? This one one aspect of mental or physical disabilities I never understood. Sure it would be nice if people were understanding, but by no means should people expect others to be understanding especially in a space shared by many. It is RNG, though through ingame tools such as waiting 5 min and putting the issue up to a vote and seeing what the outcome is. I get for many talking about what limits them is hard if not impossible, and that is understandable but how can one expect strangers to understand if they do not know, though even if they do know by no means do they l honestly have to care.

As you say I could queue with friends to avoid it, but couldn't the same be said vice versa? As many have said sure I and many others could be more flexible, but I have seen it in group and I get crap for it because I fully do not understand why it is considered okay to expect people to treat me differently because I do not fit the standard mold? Sure things would be easier if I had that stance, and I get fair is not equal and putting everyone on a fair ground means being more accommodating towards others to make sure they a even ad possible playing field be it in life or a video game. Though it personally never sat well with me since at times it appears to be for many a one way street.

I admit I should not have soley used the word anxiety, though if I had used the gambit of mental or physical disabilities that may impact one's life outside their own control I am sure it would not end up very well. Since it mostly certainly never ends up well for me IRL. I get my notion of empathy leaves much to be desired, and my views are largely black and white. I do not understand nuances between things very well.

Long and short understanding one may have certain limitations does not necessarily mean they have accommodate said limitations. Guess that is what I was trying to say. I appreciate what you are saying since I will admit my understanding others is limited and largely I know I come from a place of privilege to a degree when it comes to how I deal with my own limitations, and I do function on a base black and white scale that is often jarring.

I get even what I am saying is hypocritical and absurd because I am using my own. limitations as a means to push a standard on others just not a standard most would feel comfortable with, while not 100% my intent thinking over it now I can see how it goes off that way. It is never my intent to belittle what others have gone though, and I get my view is jaded and does not put much respect towards fellow players be it on whatever camp they fall in. As you have mentioned my own experience fuels my outlook and my work harder not smarter approach either out of fear of being mocked or just plain stubbornness is not something many will get. As a person, I am often the first person to talk fault for my actions. I mean someone hit my car in a parking lot while it was parked and I was the one who apologized and felt bad because if my car was not in that spot the accident would have never happened. My static tells me all the time that I get stuck in my own head, if someone fails a mechanic within the static I am quick to apologize since I have always feel if I was better at preforming my role that mistake may not have happened or cost them their life. I largely do believe in we can only control our own actions, and too a fault that in certain situations it could even been seen as victim blaming. Warped sense of reality I have, I get it is a fantastical fantasy.