Is it possible to put too much pressure on yourself?

[Vahlnir]

It took me a good number of days (obviously) to think about what has been said thus far, and to put together how to accurately explain myself without seeming like a brick wall not listening, or as an ungrateful jackass. The only way I can really accurately describe this is that when it comes to how I'm doing - I really only see things in terms of pass or fail, not in-between.

And yes, I will not deny that I tie my worth in-game to my logs. Not others, because when it comes to other players, I do indeed look past numbers when it comes to other players - for whatever reason, I just can't look past grey numbers for myself. Again, this is not to say that I am ignoring what others have said...it's more like, it's extremely difficult for me to comprehend.

If that makes any sense at all. Honestly, I dunno if it does.

The only thing that can be agreed upon is that you are set in your ways and no amount of responses to any of your threads will ever change that. So...it's a wasted effort. As long as it makes sense to you that's what matters.