I'm sorry this is going on so long but I'm gonna try to wrap it up. A relationship, to me, feels like an elusive myth that can never be obtained. It's like getting rich or having tons of fame. Sure people can get it, but I never could. At this point I'm ready to just live the rest of my life in solitude. There's no point anymore, and it's a waste of time and effort to try and get something I could never obtain.

Sorry for the walls of text. I suppose I'm done ranting for now. Feel free to tell me what I'm doing wrong, or why I'm looking at the dating life in the complete wrong way. I'd love some feedback but I really don't know if I have the strength to try again. I just feel so hopeless about it.

Anyways, thanks for reading.