Recently, out of a sort of desperation I guess, I joined a dating forum for nerdy people who like anime and video games and stuff like that. I wanted to put myself out there as a single guy who is looking for a significant other. But the forum was just like any other forum I've ever been to. Just a community of people talking about stuff. There were topics about dating and stuff like that, but when I look at girls' profiles, I can see that already dozens of guys were chatting with them, and I wondered why I should bother.

I'm not that social of a person, especially when I compare myself to other guys. What do I have to offer that other guys don't? Heck if I know. I feel so much like giving up. In this kind of fandom, I understand there are more guys than girls. I don't feel like I can compare to other guys. So what's the point in trying?