DPS corner of Shame

[Sylentmana]

This happened last night. So there I was, a fresh young Black Mage who just made it to 50 and still trying to get used to having Flare in my rotation. I was with a duty finder group in Wander's Palace and we were fighting the Tonberry King. My other party members all had top-tier gear and those super glowy relic weapons. About half-way through the fight I had been casting Fire I and was down to my last 200-250 MP and decided to Swiftcast Flare in the hopes of catching some of the remaining adds. I had done this earlier then casted Convert-Blizzard III to pretty good effect.

Well, this time I did it only to realize that Convert was only half-way through its cooldown. I thought "No big deal, I'll just use Transpose and cast Blizzard I till three stacks of Umbral then Fire III and I'm back in my normal rotation." The problem with that was that immediately after Transpose, I noticed I had a Firestarter proc just sitting there beckoning me longingly. Without thinking, I immediately pressed Fire III before I had a chance to regenerate any MP. I immediately realized my grievous error as soon as I pressed Fire III.


Flushing with embarrassment, I thought I would quickly jump into my inventory and pop a Mega-ether or something to regenerate enough MP to get off a Blizzard I and hope no one would notice. Then I remembered I had sold all my ether potions just before the dungeon because "I gots infinite MP. When will I ever need these?"

So there I was, staff out and no way to attack, waiting for my MP to regenerate naturally because by the time Transpose finished its cooldown my astral fire stacks had expired. This left me standing unable to do much of anything for what felt like an eternity. By the time I could attack again, the others had finished the fight just fine without me. I hoped no one notice and that I could leave quietly. Then everyone turned toward me and started saying things like: "Nice DPS, there BLM", "You really know how to play your Job BLM", and "You're the best DPS I've ever seen BLM."


I ran to leave as fast as possible then noticed that I had received 3 commendations. I don't know if they were out of pity or irony, but that's 3 commendations on my record that will forever shame me.