with this mindset the future looks dim

[DarkStaoneDragon]

There's a very good Chinese proverb:

Tell me and I'll forget; show me and I may remember; involve me and I'll understand

this is how I am, if I'm told I'll forget, show me I'd still probably forget, but if I'm doing it I'll remember, like in CT the first time I was there, I was there the other tank wanted me to MT the atomos adds even tho he was in Soldiery gear while and I was in standard AF and maybe 1 or 2 pieces of DL gear.