Sir, you apparently are suffering from something we call Stockholm Syndrome, where someone kept captive start sympathizing with their captor. You should seek psychiatric help immediately, for the abuse that FFXI has heaped upon you is far more damaging than you imagine. Also, your grammar and spelling techniques are rather lacking, and thus it would probably be beneficial for you to also seek assistance in this area as well.

All in all, while FFXI was good for its time, its time is in the past. As we step towards a bolder, better future, we will need to shed the shackles of limitations that the past has imposed on us, and stride to the beautiful horizon that is FFXIV.