Im sure theirs an FC that could use new players

Stand in a major city or even Toll and wait for someone trying to recruit
Ask them to let you in and mention that you've been pugin titan for 2months and its frustrating and if they can run you through it

Hop on their teamspeak listen to phases beat titan and live your life happily!
It no ones fault but your own.. You could get everyone you pug on TS and call phases yourself? New FC? Buy a run? Lots of options

Dont blame anyone but yourself