My man. You are showing pathology of some deeply disturbing behavioral issues, and I mean that with all empathy. Video game addiction is a serious affliction, and the zeal you display for some pixels that you didn't care about for months is not the flex you think it is. Allow me to be frank here, it's probably best for you if mods and GMs actually ban you from this game and forum at this point. That way, you can cut your losses and move on with your life. But your spam in this forum ain't it.