I'm not asking for sympathy and could care less. I wouldn't care if all my posts were deleted and my post count 0.
I'm just saying there is shit wrong with me and I make impulsive decisions to say / type. I have professional help, but haven't seen them in a while, that is my business.
Whether you bash me or not, again, I could care less. I'm not seeking sympathy, and the purpose of the video, if you watched it, was that I don't let my handicaps stop me.
Even this post was not thought well out, and I just thought my actions deserved explanation.