Just want to walk around

[EtherialOne]

I'll just note in closing that you really shouldn't naturally feel guilt for not liking something "everyone else" does. If you are feeling genuinely "crushed" then you need to really examine what's going on here. Possibly if you are having a properly difficult time accepting that you just don't like this game, a friend or family member could help you with the pain. You come off as genuinely upset and feeling tangible loss because you don't care (or think you will care) for this game.

I've been wondering why I've had a pretty extremely disproportional emotional response to a game too. After all, it's just a silly game like any other. And I don't normally get more than mildly annoyed at games. But this one has thrown me for a real emotional loop. And I think I finally figured out why last night. I'm not going to say a whole lot about it except to say that I did read quite a few spoilers. And there are things in the MSQ ahead that have happened to me in my real life right down to the point where some parts of it are basically verbatim. I think it's hitting way too close to home. And basically what I'm doing is the "flight" part of a "fight or flight" reflex.

Having realized this, I do actually feel a lot better. Maybe I'll even make it back to the game at some point. And I'll try to keep an open mind about actually doing the MSQ at some point if I do. But it may be a "never do" for me because some things should be handled in therapy (and, in my case, have been handled there and continue to be handled there), but not relived in MMORPGs. If I'm going to play a game, the purpose is to have fun. Better to focus on the fun parts and not retraumatize oneself.

With that, I'm going to not say anything more in this thread. But I will acknowledge again that FFXIV does have one of the best player bases I've ever seen in an MMORPG. I wouldn't have dared to say as much as I have in an open forum on any other game. And when/if I do make it back, that's going to be a big part of why and of what I'll focus on instead of the MSQ. Thank you all.