Still awake and having troubles sleeping, but wanted to thank everyone for the support and kind words. Just so you guys know, I do have the support of the other guild members. They're like my older brothers looking after their little sis and have helped in so many ways throughout the days. They taught me how to tank in this game when I expressed how much I wanted to play DRK, encouraged my skill growth taking me into harder content I was once too intimidated to run, showed me the proper path to gearing up, and have always been very patient with me cuz I'm such a tortoise when it comes to progression, and have made sure I've caught no spoilers along the way; they've provided emotional support; were quick to jump on anyone who would try to give me a hard time in PUGs, among so many other things. I can't say they will leave the FC along with me, nor do I have any expectations of them to do so. I would never have the audacity to say, "I'm leaving so you guys should too." They were members of that FC long before I came along.

The current guildleader was given the FC after the previous leader decided to unsub from the game. I was told the previous leader did a much better job of getting people together, making things fun, and expansion. It worked much like an actual FC back then and that went away along with that leader, which was a big reason why so many ended up leaving when I first joined. The other member are the only reason why I'm even considering staying, but I just don't think I can even be around or associated with anything this crappy person is a part of. I'll only become infuriated seeing her name in the chat logs.

Similar to how there are no laws to protect me from what happened with my previous employer; there is nothing in the ToS the GMs can do anything about, even the new one. I am fully aware of these kind of people that exist in both the real world and the virtual world, and all we can do is no longer associate with them in any way and hope that they get a fat dose of karma somewhere down the line. It just sucks and there's no light at the end of the tunnel for me right now. I really didn't need this, and I'm just hurt. Things like this is why I resonate with the DRK job soooo much.

I can say that these other guild members and I will continue to be friends, and we'll still get together to run things. But even with a new FC, I know I'll be different. The chatty, high-spirited, and bubbly Gem in bruised up and needs time to heal. I don't/can't even think of starting a FC right now, and would be very shy and quite in a new FC. Perhaps after some moons pass things will get better.