When I need exp, I want Prae. I typically get Castrum.

When I need tomes, I want Castrum. I typically get Prae.

Diagnosis: RNGesus hates and loves all.

As for bust sliders and looking like males, I'm going to have to disagree with that. Especially considering you're a Midlander, who are very feminine. Nothing outside of heavy armor prevents jiggle physics on my character, and even if said armor makes me appear like a really small male avatar, my run and idle animations would totally give it away. If you want to appear more feminine than you do already, then you can indeed adjust the bust slider to max and choose more feminine attire. There are tons to choose from.