Dealing with Panic and anxiety during high end content

[Gemina]

I'll be the first to admit that it is indeed a personal issue

But it's mostly an issue that surfaces for me when expectations from people around me gets higher and higher and it's not just only in 14 but an issue I still have in real life especially now that I'm studying for Masters degree in college

If I try again today I'll make sure to tell this issue to the party and afterwards I'll be taking a definite long break from raiding until I fix myself as much as I can so it wouldn't impact my enjoyment of the game

Yeah see... you're studying for a Master's, dude. Having anxiety about how you're performing in a raid scenario should be the least of your worries. You'd need to be like my RL buddy, who does savage raids so casually. He cares about his performance too, don't get me wrong. But his performance is not hindered by panic brought about through anxiety. You know you're better than that, and for me personally, I wouldn't be able to take much from clear when I know I could've performed much better than I did.

I fully relate to your issue because it is the reason why I don't do savage raids as well. Well, part of it. I've been humbled by them, dealt with those who egos inflate with every raid clear, and challenged the meta to see reason above math logic. It really is just too exhausting for me, and it is a shame because I would also like to do God Kefka while he is still somewhat relevant. But like I said, I have to weight the value of this clear with the stress of getting it and accept the fact that I chose not to get the clear due to a personal issue.

At any rate, I do hope for the best in your current and future endeavors.

[MetalSnakeXI1]

Thanks to everyone for all the advices

Sorry again for the sob episode I had.

For now I'll try to take things easy and slow

If I get the clear at some point I'd wanna do it while I'm in a better state of mind

It might not be now or tomorrow or the week after.....but I'll take a breather and rethink the whole thing through

Thank you again guys,and sorry again

[TaleraRistain]

You shouldn't apologize for a "sob episode'. Those are your real feelings. If it's making you anxious and panicky, just step back from it for a while. And why worry about disappointing others in a game? You aren't a robot. And I can promise they aren't perfect either. There's something in this game they mess up, too. We all do. If you feel that those you run with really are that judgmental, don't run with them. Find some players who are more laid back and can roll with a mistake instead of getting up in arms about it.

[Lunalepsy]

You need to learn the script. Memorize it until you can recite it word by word!

[Iromi]

Aww I had this issue when facing challenges myself IRL, when having to go on stage or in front of the camera I would have panic attacks before hand. What helped me was therapy with a specialist and medication.

I suggest seeing a doctor, they are very helpful for this sort of thing I am so sorry you had to go through this and hope you can find relief! No one should have to feel this way *hug*

[Quinna]

Thanks to everyone for all the advices

Sorry again for the sob episode I had.

For now I'll try to take things easy and slow

If I get the clear at some point I'd wanna do it while I'm in a better state of mind

It might not be now or tomorrow or the week after.....but I'll take a breather and rethink the whole thing through

Thank you again guys,and sorry again

Don't consider it a Sob episode, You are dealing with something and asked for advice! Nothing to be ashamed of!! I've all but had to stop really pushing to do end game and savage content, I struggle with stress and anxiety issues in my daily life and it does reflect in game when I'm being pushed. I don't have issues so much with pugs because I don't really care as much as when I'm with a consistent group that I actually care about.
It used to get so bad when I was raiding that I used to hyperventilate and get heart palpitations during particularly hard parts or near the end of fights.
This was years ago now, and I have it under control now with breathing techniques and medication. I'm like night and day looking back. I would like to raid again at SOME POINT, but I don't want to cause myself undue anxiety.. which sucks because I do keep my gear up and I do like to push myself and help others.
tldr; Gaming is stressful, just take care of yourself! You're not alone in bugging tf out during fights xD <3

[HyoMinPark]

This is something that I'm particularly really really really bad with

Specifically with savage raids in particular.

Today I finally found a good party to clear O8S with,yet my stupid incompetent ass squandered this opportunity so badly by constantly panicking on Forsaken 2 and losing my sense of direction once I finish dropping the last aoe from the melee dance

I felt like a scum of the earth and legit wanted to die when that happened,I memorized this fight to a T,I did so many retries to the point the whole fight is itched in my mind to the point where it's even playing in my head as I'm typing this.Yet I was that one anchor that dragged our party down and I absolutely have zero excuse for it.

Yes it is a video game but I absolutely hate wasting other people's time especially those who came in legit trying to help me.

Even if I got over my panic and anxiety,once I finish O8S I'll probably quit high end raiding for a long while,I don't think I'm cut for neither Alphascape savage nor the two Ultimate fights.

What you're dealing with is something I think a lot of new Raiders deal with. Even experienced raiders can get turned around with regards to mechanics - I know it happens to me frequently when I'm learning a new fight. There's a reason I like having waymarks to at least mark where North is

What you need to learn, though, is that everyone makes mistakes. Whether it's fudging a mechanic or losing their sense of direction, it happens to everyone. Even high-end players. I ran Suzaku a week ago with some of the world-first caliber raiders, and even they made a couple mistakes (late shirks, accidentally messing up Simon Says, I think one even walked off the edge). And they just laughed it off. And, while making mistakes can be embarrassing, they happen. Doesn't mean that you're incompetent.

If you think taking a break would do you well, then by all means do so. But getting disoriented isn't a reason to quit; it happens to more people than just you.

I do think you have quite a bit more growth to do before you can tackle Ultimate, but you can more than easily tackle Alphascape after God Kefka. Chaos is actually a really good entry fight, in my opinion. I thought I'd find it boring but I didn't.