I will admit that I don't know the situation, but what I quoted from you specifically asked to look up SCH Logs of you pushing 4500 HPS yourself to keep the party alive.
Intrigued that SCH would even be capable of such a feat without 100% Ballad uptime, I decided to look into your logs as requested. Please don't take this as me discrediting you or "bullying" but unlike people, numbers don't lie or stretch truths to make themselves bigger, they just are what they are. So what do we have:
- 4500 HPS - No (1800-2000 which is actually really high for a SCH on that fight)
- 2 attemps - No, it was 132 attempts
- Solo healing - No the WHM and AST in either group had heals under control, any extra caused extreme overheal.
The only truth I see from the numbers is that the group did fail mechanics occasionally and most deaths were simply 1 shots. The main mechanic that seemed to fail is having the adds die in time on the platforms where they fall into the lava, which extra healer DPS would most definitely have helped with and is something they absolutely excel at.
I am in no way perfect and lost count ages ago on how many deaths I've caused attempting to excel at the SCH class. The difference I feel between you and I is being able to take any criticisms and failures and using them to adapt and perfect my play style as well as my desire to be a strong asset to any party I run with whether it be strong healing or adapting to kill things faster and I don't think that makes me a toxic player.
What is toxic is not being good at something and not taking accountability to it and stepping up to improve, but instead expelling all those energies blaming others for ones own shortcomings. That is neither good for the community or ones self in improving.
It's too bad that you aren't in the same data center as me because it would be awesome to run some content with you, because I bet you're pretty decent as a main healer and I'm pretty good at adapting to my co-healers play style to really push both our limits.