Yikes.
I kinda hope you're fibbing....but if not, there are alternatives if you're having a hard time doing Atma.
Seriously, just stop before you hurt yourself. Do what I'm doing...Get the Leviathan EX weapons and Ramuh EX weapon.
I believe they are both ilvl95 - ilvl100 respectively. It's more fun to try those ways too.
Also, no one is forcing you to do Atma. Your health is above all than this game.

Be safe.