Fellow healers, lend me your counsel

[TeaTimeBear]

Over the weekend I opted to do primal runs. It was at this time that I would probably encounter one of my worst PF runs ever. After taking down Titan I proceeded to join an Ifrit run, but this run would make me question my own ability as a healer..

For starters the tank pulled Ifrit straight towards the west. The WHM was positioned towards the west while I covered the East side. I have done Ifrit before but I was not used to this positioning. When I did it before we were about northwest with him..Or a bit closer to north itself. Needless to say it was terrible as soon as I got seering wind the whole party began moving towards me to dodge eruptions.. Again something I hadn't seen before.

We wiped repeatedly, then they began to question my ability to heal. The WHM in the party told me to heal the tanks on my own while she gets the party and vice versa when one of us gets SW. She provided me with no regen or medica 2.. I had never struggled this hard with healing tanks during Ifrit. Even when we swapped sides I still couldn't solo heal nor keep them up.. And I don't know why it was so hard..

Needless to say I was blamed entirely, I didn't deny the mocking, nor the laughter, my pride as a healer was even more obliterated when the WHM began to baby me by asking what she could do to make me feel comfortable. I opted to leave so they could get a new member and even after saying that I was mocked. So here I am not, asking the community for aid. Have I been foolish this whole time? Playing pretend like a little girl walking about in mommies heels playing grown up.. Or was there more at work here ? As mentioned the other times I did Ifrit with another WHM it went fine.. Was mostly DPS issues but we downed him. But this time it was like a whole new primal..

If I am bad. I will stop healing I would hate to be a liability. So please help me come to terms with this.