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SassyAssassin
I used to be a fanta addict. I played au ra and was constantly changing faces, eyes, something was always “off”...
Since Viera came, at first I didn’t feel that confident to play them because they reminded me of real life and I hated myself. The amount of time men and women told me I was “too tall, no you can’t wear this it looks too short on you and you’ll look sl*tty, no you can’t put heals you’ll be taller than me” etc. really got to me, so in fantasy settings I was choosing the opposite, who I deemed as the perfect type of woman and who I thought I wanted to be, a small little au ra who doesn’t need to hide in long hoodies because a skirt looks cute on her and not “inappropriate”.
This was of course all regardless me absolutely loving Viera from the start but self hate sucks and makes no sense. Lack of confidence and years of being told there’s something wrong with you, can really bring you to seeing everybody as good looking except yourself.
Then with time I decided to give them a try, and here we are a year later after having used fantasias at least once a month (yeah I judge myself too but I was immature and dumb af) I stayed a Viera without changing for long, except into boy bun to try it out but I always missed the feminine so I turned back after a week or so.
I did “fine-tune” her twice, but I think at the moment she is pretty much perfect, (except I caaaaaaant decide on the eaaaaars!!!!!).
I can’t imagine getting rid of her as my main, and each time I tried due to headgear limitations, it wouldn’t last a day. I would instantly feel as if that other character isn’t relatable whatsoever (possibly why I was never happy with my au ra), not just in looks but lore-wise as well.
I mean come on, I get to be a bunny living in a forest, part of a female society - my forest sisters, and frolic the hell out of whatever fields I see. I feel at home. I love Cinnabun and in a way she helped me be less hard on myself.
Now I know what you’re thinking and no I don’t see my therapist anymore, inflation got out of hand, so thanks for listening :3!