I'm tired of arguing, seriously

Hate me all you want, but my mood is often reflected in my rant posts. I'm bipolar, so I'm sorry. I'm tired of the crap.
To me it seems like some of you get off on bashing people. I was ranting, it helped but negative posts kept adding up. I've been through a lot: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mDgjq...acAUAAAAAABQAA.
I put my life into this game, so I take it kind of seriously. I hate negativity, so when people go from 1-50 and start bitching, I kind of want to rant. I hadn't posted in the forums until recently when I thought it was a good idea one day. I was wrong, sorry.
NOT SEEKING SYMPATHY
I just feel my actions demand an explanation

Makes no sense when you say you "hate negativity" when you were the one being negative in the first place.....also im sure many people have disabilities either it be physical or in the mental state but i don't see them coming onto the forums being negative to a portion of the community because they level a different way. So please don't try to use your disorder as an excuse.

No one was arguing with you either we were all pretty much stating valid points to your rant to begin with you just seemed to dislike our view points. To be honest you really aren't going to get any sympathy....

I don't get off on bashing people in the slightest. In fact, I've only ever lost my temper and berated someone ingame once, and I started playing at CE release. There are any number of players I get angry at for various reasons, sure, but I know how to keep my complaints to myself, linkshell chat, voice chat, whatever. So know that what I'm about to say to you doesn't come from some desire to "bash" you, but because I think it needs to be said.

Now, I get that you're bipolar and that you've been through some rough times, but as much as those might be explanations for your behaviour, they aren't excuses, and it seems like you're trying to brush away personal responsibility with your post. The fact of the matter is that you seem more intent on fishing for sympathy than showing contrition (car crashes are never good, but how does one from 2006 relate to anything on an FF14 forum?), and that's not only irresponsible, but quite honestly insulting towards those who don't let such conditions and experiences affect their interactions with others. You're still in full control over whether to click submit for your posts, and if you aren't, you should be seeking professional help, not immersing yourself in an MMO. If you're truly sorry, then show it through your actions, not through your statements, because like the poster above me said, few people are going to offer sympathy when you act this way.

I'm not asking for sympathy and could care less. I wouldn't care if all my posts were deleted and my post count 0.
I'm just saying there is shit wrong with me and I make impulsive decisions to say / type. I have professional help, but haven't seen them in a while, that is my business.
Whether you bash me or not, again, I could care less. I'm not seeking sympathy, and the purpose of the video, if you watched it, was that I don't let my handicaps stop me.
Even this post was not thought well out, and I just thought my actions deserved explanation.

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Originally Posted by Xakery

I'm not asking for sympathy and could care less. I wouldn't care if all my posts were deleted and my post count 0.
I'm just saying there is shit wrong with me and I make impulsive decisions to say / type. I have professional help, but haven't seen them in a while, that is my business.
Whether you bash me or not, again, I could care less. I'm not seeking sympathy, and the purpose of the video, if you watched it, was that I don't let my handicaps stop me.
Even this post was not thought well out, and I just thought my actions deserved explanation.

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So in other words you're saying you haven't actually learned anything. You say you make impulsive decisions, then you say your post wasn't well thought out. You might not be seeking sympathy (or even forgiveness), but it definitely looks like you're seeking attention and you're doing it in a very immature way while trying to hide behind your history as a shield against reproach.

No offense, but I think anyone who makes a YOUTUBE video of their personal issues and shows it to a bunch of strangers on a forum... is fishing for sympathy.

Sorry man, that's just how it comes across.

I give up. I'm not posting on here anymore. You all win, congratulations.

You're funny Xak.


...guess what? I got moogle claws! rawr!

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Originally Posted by Truce

No offense, but I think anyone who makes a YOUTUBE video of their personal issues and shows it to a bunch of strangers on a forum... is fishing for sympathy.

Sorry man, that's just how it comes across.

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or hes trying to get hits on his vid to fatten that youtube check.

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I give up. I'm not posting on here anymore. You all win, congratulations.

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thats probly for the best, you really need to evaluate how you post, thats the issue

if your not posting, you wont make people mad anymore

I personally don't have anything against Xakery as i don't know him ig, but there are people out there starving for attention and what not.

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or hes trying to get hits on his vid to fatten that youtube check.

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With 31 Subs and 24k views total he doesn't have anywhere close to enough to get a partnership to get paid.
Just saying.

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I personally don't have anything against Xakery as i don't know him ig, but there are people out there starving for attention and what not.



With 31 Subs and 24k views total he doesn't have anywhere close to enough to get a partnership to get paid.
Just saying.

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he needs to post some funny cat vids then,lol

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he needs to post some funny cat vids then,lol

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Or make his testimony video viral with some Dead Island theme and ad-like commentary. :V

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Or make his testimony video viral with some Dead Island theme and ad-like commentary. :V

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maybe at the end he could have a zombie jump out and scare people so when you show you friends people think its one thing but then they get scared and you laugh at them.

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maybe at the end he could have a zombie jump out and scare people so when you show you friends people think its one thing but then they get scared and you laugh at them.

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Oh god. Make this happen. It'd be hilarious.

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I give up. I'm not posting on here anymore. You all win, congratulations.

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So... anyone wanna take bets on how long before Xakery starts posting again?

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So... anyone wanna take bets on how long before Xakery starts posting again?

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Probably after he wins the Garuda fight. But seriously, Xak's a nice guy. He doesn't need to be picked on.

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Originally Posted by Molly_Millions

Probably after he wins the Garuda fight. But seriously, Xak's a nice guy. He doesn't need to be picked on.

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No one is picking on him tho people are just calling him out on his Bull s***.
If hes going to start flaming/complaining or whatever towards people that do something a certain way he should be able take whatever comes at him in responses. No one was actually b*tching him out or anything we basically all came back with VALID points to his arguement and he did not like it and im sorry i have to say it acted like a little child with this "il just Blist you" attitude....if he cannot have a mature convo with people then he should expect to get treated the way people are treating him which is again calling him out on his arguements....

This thread is awesome though.

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Probably after he wins the Garuda fight. But seriously, Xak's a nice guy. He doesn't need to be picked on.

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Honestly, I wouldn't know if he's a nice guy or not, although if I met him ingame, none of this would affect my interactions with him because as far as I'm concerned there's no reason to make this personal. I'm only really concerned with this specific thread at the moment. He's being a drama whore and I'm pointing that fact out and suggesting alternate approaches to the issue at hand (although I admit the post you quoted was just me being snarky). I'm not "picking on him" at all—I may be a bit firm-handed but I think my contributions to this thread are overall positive.

Lol good joke

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I'm bipolar, so I'm sorry.

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That's a disease, not an excuse.

And I also hope it's not self-diagnosed.

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Originally Posted by Ziyyigo-Tipyigo

That's a disease, not an excuse.

And I also hope it's not self-diagnosed.

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This.

Coming from someone who is clinically diagnosed, I don't have urges to post QQ threads on the forums with things I hate about the server. You should have inquired about Besaid before merging here. Pretty much everything you're complaining about is normal for us all.

Wow, Xylia. You're bipolar? I didn't know that from the time playing with you (if you remember me haha). Don't worry man, you may be reading responses as harsher than they may seem, and taking from that that they interpret your posts as harsh too. In any case, text without tonation is a long running problem of the internet.

"Text_without_tonation" potential tumblr name amirit?

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Originally Posted by Ziyyigo-Tipyigo

That's a disease, not an excuse.

And I also hope it's not self-diagnosed.

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i remember when kilta always used to sit there and yell at anyone who commented on the way they acted as being racist against people with ADHD and always hid behind it

do we now get to laugh at someone else for something similar?

Hiding behind a mental illness is never a justifiable means to ones end all it will ever do is hurt your rep and most likely cause you to loose friends. Just because you are Bi-polar or have ADHD does not give you permission to act like an ass I speak from experience both in real life and in game. I have ADD I admit it however I don't hide behind it to get my way or to boss people around or whatever I try to put it to good use and get stuff done. Now that dosent mean I dont get discouraged I do very very easily epically when I need help or run out of leves but I try to ask for advice or ask if people wanna duo ect. One does have the right to complain and moan but do it too much and people will resent you for it.

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I put my life into this game, so I take it kind of seriously.

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There are better things in this world to devote one's life to... You are young w/ much to learn.