Please help me understand why/how Chaotic one last time? (because I'm done)

[Gurgeh]

After playing for four years I unsubbed about 2 months ago. (pretty unhappy, lot of good reasons. cant be bothered to repeat anymore than you want to hear)
Then I resubbed about a month ago, but cancelled it the moment I resubbed to let it run out again.
Worked hard to be ready for Chaotic.
]Cleared Ex3. Hated the farms and went back to polishing Ex2 and Ex3 practices parties.
Got my gear to 723.
(spent an absolute fortune on 80 Roast Chicken)

I had loads of fun in Chaotic in Light DutyFinder on 24th. LOADS of fun. Got to P2 in about 2 1/2 hours login time. Knew most of the P1 mechs well, even if not consistent. The ones I didn't know, I just didn't know that I didn't know.

Raved about it to all those casual friends who'd resubbed (nothing to do with me) just before Christmas also. They said "lets set something up for new Chaotic 'Alliance'?".
The top 10 ranked ultimate raider, (one of the rankings I wont say which) in my now dead community piped in to warn them it was hard. Properly savage hard. And they were absolutely right to do so. They weren't just being gatekeeping. We'd been speculating just days before with them how hard it would be. (Yoshi, you should have just said, "its 'above' entry level Savage. Its tough." Not "It requires communication". You know what we want to know. You know why. Just say it. Lot of already disappointed people, more disappointed. This is basic 'relations'.)
Those friends were barely logging in even though they'd been unsubbed much longer that me. Its clear they came back for 'the new type of "Alliance"' And needless to say they never tried Chaotic in the end.

I Came back on 26th AM.
DF was dead.
Spent a whole day in PF. A whole day. Made no more progress. 3 pull abandon wait, after abandon wait after abandon wait. For much of that I wasn't even yet joining P2 parties. Getting 'absolutely no' useful P1 practice. A phase I've only done for a couple of hours two days ago.
I finally had a great P2 begin party 10:30 PM. In 1 hour got to see P3 transition (sort of ><)
But I still had a horrible day, where barely anyone even said 'hi' in /a or /p chat, (I was joining English language parties) who would then leave abruptly form one or more parties.

Anyway. I'm done. And I really don't every see myself coming back except out of morbid curiosity. Great as the people are in my new communities, I've got no connection to them now, and won't if I return. I won't be geared for high end. I 'will' be bored of casual. (I'm not going to enjoy the next Bozja unless its an Extreme level challenge. I don't enjoy drind unless there is a longer term goal. And I won't be planning on being there long term.)
Yeah we are just done.

(for those who've managed to avoid my posts the last couple of days, I bought a PS5 for the sofa, to add to my office 3080RTX PC account, just for this game, I 'enjoyed' this game so much getting from ARR to EW over 3.5 year.)