I can understand and you look like a long term player like myself. I have had almost 15 years of FFXIV and I loved 1.0 even the bad as it at least had a world and amazing atmosphere and something to explore.
I know the game was in a bad state I was there but saying that I had hours of fun and watched the game evolve. I moved with the times and felt sad that a lot of the good was lost and that was making it less like FFXI and more duty finder and dodge battle fest.

I find myself logging in less at the moment and finished some of the things I wanted to do. I always can find things to do but become bored now and also they really messed up my character >.< and they never listen to feedback on things like hairstyles (Hilda's) and never seem to want to fix the things that players are asking for where in the past they seemed to listen