It's just clear we want different experinces, some of the fights you mentioned i really enjoyed. (for example I did like pre-nerf TG cid because we actually had to mechanics instead of hit a target dummy), though there have been some misses (e6s was certainly a pain, even the normal version).

Someone in your party must have been logging, but the records show you actually aren't terrible, it's like... idk... you find figuring out new mechancis stressful and that bothers you, where as players like myself find it exciting. It's the easy content that bothers me (think Cyrcus Tower) because i can just 1-2-3 and turn my brain off. I'd much rather take a nap.

I'm just trying to empathize better. I literally have no idea what it's like to be a person that doesn't like learning new, challanging things. Learning new stuff is probably the reason i choose to keep on living - there's just always these questions in the world.

I think though it will be like spicy food, the more you eat, the more you want, and the higher your baseline is. If you keep playing, these things will eventually not seem hard at all.