I’m not yet sure that I can joyfully go into the future with the version of my character that I saw in the benchmark.
I'm also not sure that I should invalidate my feelings about my character so that the developers don't lose morale.
And I'm absolutely not sure that I should feel grateful for the way my character looks in benchmark.

What I'm sure of is that the situation must be corrected. I continue to hope that this is not the final version (as the benchmark description says), I continue to hope that this will be fixed. My compromise is to wait patiently for fixes and describe those details that I see as incorrectly performed.

I love this game very much, it made me happy. I liked everything, I never expressed any complaints. I enjoyed my character and our journey together. I would like to be able to continue doing this. And it's because of this I'm writing here now, on this forum.

I don't want to suppress my current feelings for the sake of an ephemeral “bright future” and benefit. This is an unhealthy position.