Tbh i am having a rough time with FFXIV...but isn't the game itself. This game was present in some awful days of my life, in some sense, my days are better now but still not completely fine. When i log in, i just do any event that is going on and log out. No one in my friendlist talk to me and i don't talk to anyone. I just got tired of being the one person approaching and asking how they are doing. I'm afraid that someday i will stop caring about such events and just unsub permanently. I love the journey and how FFXIV changed how i deal with games but i can't keep playing while the same game reminds me of how lonely and miserable i feel like.