For context: I have never been that big for tab-target pvp. It's an awkward experience in itself, but for most cases it isn't too bad. With that said, I tend to stop with it after being able to acquire a item or novelty I might like, and usually it comes out as a decently enjoyable experience.

This doesn't apply to CC however. I'm not sure what it is, but the gamemode finds a way to get under my skin and bring the worst version of myself out. It's as if it was designed to make me miserable. I have rarely enjoyed any matches. Most the time it's the entire enemy team spamming stuns on you until you die. Most the time it's a morale-crushing defeat, with some matches barely lasting a minute. Dramatic clutches where we win against all odds just feel like a waste of time where I could have gotten the loser's xp and move on to another match by then. This could be a case of skill being required, but even in the cases where I actually perform, I find no enjoyment from winning and even the great rewards don't give much excitement. The experience feels like a sunk cost fallacy for gameplay.

The time-gated rewards don't help much either. I was genuinely excited for the augmented hellhound weapons, as I thought they were neat. Yet, when I found they were behind a fleeting ranked status that I am fairly certain will not be reached, I considered it something I will never get. At the very least most people consider them not that attractive so maybe I'm sparing myself some humiliation lol.

I just don't know really. I know it's certainly my desire to win, but in the end that experience seems a dime a dozen, and the added pressure of items that will be unavailable possibly forever makes it seem arduous. I'm not necessarily asking for answers more than I am speaking from my heart, but I do wonder if others, maybe a majority, have a similar distaste for the CC experience as myself.

I don't intend to return here. I don't think I'll even read the replies. I just felt the need to get it off my chest and put my expression of a gamemode that I want to enjoy and see a sense of satisfaction for the things I earn from it. At least a daily frontline can suffice for now.

If I do get humiliated for this post, It'd be hard to, since I've no pride left. That's one thing I can give CC compliments for: keeping me from arrogance. It's a shame I won't play it if I don't have to.

P.S. Give us party mode pvp. Playing with friends is the only way for me to possibly like it.