I have anxiety running dungeons, why the pressure?

[GumiBee]

When I run dungeons I can get really anxious and worried, especially when I come up against a new hurdle or I have forgotten previous bosses moves.

I always apologize when I make a mistake or die but often it feels like people gets angry behind the keyboard even when they say that it is okay.

I just want to be able to run duty roulette somewhat carefree but I always experience the above it feels like. It makes me wish for an easy or hard mode on top of the normal mode for dungeons

I hate feeling that pressure of having done a miss and died. It makes me worry that my party hates having me in the part. Especially after a long pause and I die to previous bosses. What can I do lose some of that pressure? Is there a system or a setting I can do to make it a little easier for me?

I know that I can do a party finder group, but that can take time and would rather use duty finder since it doesn't mean the pressure won't be there even with PF.