Yeah, that's most likely I'm so upset about all this. Back in SB, I was happy with my small beachside house in the mist. I only really wanted to upgrade to a med and never saw myself owning a large. Knowing I wanted a med really badly bc I hated how small it was in the item cap, a friend help me keep an eye out for a med in either shiro or mist(my fav areas in the game at that date). Then they found the goblet large Im in now. They talk me into getting it, even leaning me the 25mil I was short. I broke down and got it thinking one day I could move to a better housing area since I always hated the goblet. At first, it was fun having a large but as time went on I grow to hate it more and more, even losing the motivation to decorate it. I never really knew how hard it is to make a large look nice, especially the yard due to the fact goblet larges doors do not line up with the yard's gate.
Anyway, I saved up all my gil and paid the friend back their 25mil over the course of the last year of SB and ShB. When Ishgrad housing was announced I was excited bc I thought this was my time to finally move but then they said they removed the timer bypass house owners had and everyone would have to do the lottery. I knew then my odds of moving to med or large in Ishgrad were so small now. I tried but have failed every lottery cycle that I found at least a med open in one of the other housing areas. Now I feel so defeated by an rng system that most likely will never allow me to leave the house I have grown to hate so much. I could just let auto demo take it and take the loss in gil but tbh I don't know if I could do that bc I would most likely lose so many housing items since I dont have the inv space to keep them(that includes cash shop items I gotten to like the expac pics). Now I feel like a prisoner in a house and in the area I always hated. Even worst is that friend who help me get the house isn't even a friend anymore, we had a fallen out and now this house only reminds me of her every day. So that's why I'm so depressed and tired of this system and got so heated towards others who call me entitled. The grass isn't always greener on the other side.
If I only knew all this back in SB. I would never gave up my mist house.