No. I mean here we go on another carnival ride of you and your supposed personal problems. This has nothing to do with what you actually think about stuff, but the fact that these threads accomplish nothing, aside from maybe the next most welcome ban for you.
I have nothing to be ashamed of because I'm not the one apparently trying to gain sympathy from different situations you put yourself in. If any of this is legitimate (again, I doubt this. You just come off as attention seeking), then I would offer one piece of advice: Check your baggage (emotional and otherwise) at the door and just enjoy the game.