Current Problem Parallels

[VelKallor]

Sorry if I was more interested in going after the end of the world rather than following the drama of a character who died in ARR

Drama? Again this was in MSQ, in ARR to be exact, the two of them were childhood friends.

She was Urianger's best friend, a mentor, one of the very few he allowed to get close. Anyone could see the guilt he had at not seeing her parents. terrified of what they would say..terrified they would blame HIM for her passing. saying that he could have saved her somehow.

Survivor guilt does that to you, you stay away from those they were close to, afraid they would lash out at you and hold you responsible, even if it wasnt the case. note in previous conversations he asks after them and is told they are absent..you can see the relief on his face, glad that for now, that meeting has been postponed.

Even if you know there was nothing you could have done, you still ask yourself "why am i alive", "how do i explain what happened to her, how do i tell them I was not there to protect her..how do i face her parents?"

Urianger was quiet, sensitive, the studious type that didnt make friends easily, and like many, did not want to admit his feelings for her, did not want ANYONE to know the grief he carried alone, he locked it inside and let NO ONE in.

You have no idea what that feeling is when that meeting is not one of recrimination, but love, understanding, forgiveness. Didnt you hear her mother, angry not at Moenbryda's death, but that her best friend and someone THEY LOVED had carried that burden for years, alone?

"If there was one thing we resented you for, it was that we could not be there to mourn her with you"

I guess you will never understand.