Strum, we don’t interact so much but I hope you are ok, and if not that it’s ok to not be ok.. it will always get better.

I wanted to reiterate everything I posted here was a genuine attempt to help you think about all the angles and ultimately find some closure. I hope that at the end of all this you can find yourself in a happy situation and enjoying the game again, clean record or not. And if there are blemishes, to see them as learning opportunities, not cracks. Fail forward, as they say.

If it means talking to someone or just venting amongst friends in a safe space, do whatever you gotta do.

I hope at the end you find yourself a better person and a better player all around.

I would leave you with with: “Those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.” — Bernard Baruch.

Best wishes in all of this, sincerely.