This has been bothering me for a while. The seeming breakdown in ethics, and my character being complicit in them. It's resulted in the first time in over a decade that I've been disillusioned with the game. I'm not sure how to speak about it.
I enjoyed how we have so many things in Endwalker to draw comparisons between. Two synthetic habitats, one welcoming (Labrinthos), and the other cold and mechanical (Bestways Burrow), but both well-intentioned in their design. The way that, after a decade, the garleans are destroyed by their own avarice, not by our hand. I had no idea what the future held, despite being in that world since 1.0
I also enjoyed the ethical questions the Leveilleurs face within their family. I think every player who relates to their character will find their reasoning for why they do what they do as their WoL.
The happenings on the moon were another fascinating series of twists. Bestways Burrow made me think of how constructed top-down utopias are so sterile and cold. Even though I love that the Loporrits are trying their best. They can't expect themselves to get it perfect before people come, because a truly wonderful habitat takes effort from every inhabitant to add color, and make it unique.
I must admit, I had a bit of an unexpected sorta-spiritual moment in Elpis. Feels silly to say. Final Fantasy games tend to do that sometimes though. It tickled some very deep feelings within me. 1: It feels like an example of my dream that people would become wiser, and more peaceful, if most of us were centuries old. 2: It brought me back to the community I felt with my coworkers in R&D at my old job I miss (The Mourning Dew especially) 3: Coolest development environment i've dreamed of for new biotech, which tickles my interest in bioengineering 4: I really wasn't expecting to feel like my Elezen fit-in so darn well. That sure was lucky character creation.
Suffice to say, I didn't feel like leaving for a bit.
I really got my hopes up that the game would do something truly unexpected, and split the timeline to save both worlds. There still is hope for it, but the way the Elpis chapter came to a close just felt like such a cheap "holywood ending" to keep things from getting too complicated. It felt like it undermined the weight of us finally telling them about the future. At the end I hated how my character agreed to Venat's sophistic ramblings about needing suffering to make hope and happiness. Even the unsundered world had enough suffering to do that judging by speaking with others, we didn't need to let any more happen.
I felt a sense of guilt, like my character gave Venat the knowledge of that particular possible timeline, so venat took the safest choice and went for our future instead of trying another. I would have definitely been in our former-self's camp of trying to find a third way. But that's speaking as if it's in the past, I was there, I had that duty to save them along with the future. If I didn't fix it there to split the timeline, I'll come back after endwalker to do it... Or so I'd like to dream. The story doesn't seem to bother itself with causality, so neither shall I.
I came back and even Y'shtola had no comment about how amazing it was, it was all just a footnote in our current quest to us jaded Scions.
This is when the worst thing happened, I realized how it would unfold. The mystery died a good deal. I decided to stay in Elpis for a few weeks since it was a nice place to relax from earthly worries. I ended up seeing spoilers, but wasn't spoiled because It was precisely everything I expected. I had already spoiled myself by figuring it out.
It's been really difficult because my best friend won't speak to me about endwalker out of a misguided decision to not do spoilers, even when I already know them, and request them. So instead of having that agony of sitting silently while my friend reads the lore forums and exiles me from her thoughts on endwalker any more, I'm making myself finish endwalker. Boy am I not having fun. There's so much my Elezen would do differently, and I'm not sure exactly how to get back on the bandwagon now.
It's interesting that every former convocation member is in some way uses genocide as their method. The ascians decided upon it after their methods failed, Venat decided to sunder the entire world out of a fear that the persuit of perfection would bring genocide anyway, and our WoL has no small number of kills in her journey.
It comes back to the Leveilleur's good questions they asked each other over what is right. I had an explanation as for why my WoL has done the right thing, but not after we left Venat in Elpis to her views on what is right. I wouldn't want Venat to sunder the world for 12,000 years of suffering just to have my future. I would need a very good reason to let it all happen. I definitely didn't find it by the time I walked out of Elpis. My character was more confident than me.
My view is heavily biased because everybody else seems to have a normal time in the Elpis story, and everything else flows ok. Meanwhile for me it was a big rise and then crash. I am unsure how to unbias my view other than asking you your opinions.
In this instance, spoilers are welcome, since I'm now trying to find a reason to want to play again, but finishing these last quests has been rough. So speak openly.
Thank you