Greetings,
I just finished the MSQ and I need to take this off my heart or else it will explode.
What a magnificent story, this whole game, I still find myself in awe, every moment during the story the thought of "Aye, I love this game" would pass through my mind, and yet I feel this heavy anchor inside my heart after everything we've been through.
I am NOT someone who cry often(I even have a problem of lack of tears in my eyes that I need to use eyedrops), the point is, I'm destroyed. Patch 5.3 was something that I'll always carry in my heart, was the first time I cried while playing something, and I tend to always cherish my firsts times, they hold a special meaning for me, and no one can deny that 5.3 was a master piece. I have this immense problem with saying goodbyes, I hate that things always come to an end, even tho I know that this is the natural course of things, it still breaks my heart, and since the begining of Endwalker I had this feeling "This is really the ending of this whole story that I've been through so many years" causing me to taste this bittersweetness.
Endwalker specially made me cry so much, Elpis was such a memorable place, I can say with all words that this has been my favorite moment in the entire game, being able to venture with such charismatic characters, even Hythlodaeus being such a sweet baby, Emet-Selch which is my favorite character, and of course Venat. The duty which we had to battle with Venat was so much fun, I don't know if it was because of the music, and O M G what music was that, I still have that song running through my mind nonstop ever since I heard it, but I really felt happiness doing that duty, the way we explored Elpis with her, I must say I was never a big fan of Hydaelyn cause I tend to enjoy villains better, but the story was so well-built that it made me start to care about Venat/Hydaelyn, only to just after we have our battle with Hydaelyn and receive that punch of cutscene on our face. The moment we called Hydaelyn as Venat and she started to cry, I couldn't hold it... After everything we've been through with Venat in Elpis, and now Hydaelyn is going to fade, my tears just wouldn't stop, thinking that we would never see her again, and to think that she was a character that I wouldn't even mind... All the kinda "daily-routine" moments that we could share with Emet and Hythlo during Elpis, it warms my heart, and also Hermes's story, beholding the biggest enemy of all, who destroyed not only Etheirys as in the Ascian's time but also tried to destroy our world.
And then finally we arrive to Ultima Thule, that heavy-feeling place, the music as soon as we get on that place made me feel so anxious, it was like I myself couldn't even breath properly, and even as the cliche plot was happening with the scions taking turns to sacrifice themselves so we could procede, I couldn't help but feel sad with what was happening. When G'raha's time came, my tears started to come out again, even tho I knew that we would have them back, G'raha is a character that I care and it was so sad to see him go, right after was that moment when we climbed our way to the Dead Star with the twins, and I couldn't even read properly what they were saying, my eyes were so full of tears, thinking of everything that we've been through to be in the place that we were, all the moments good and bad that we've lived inside the MSQ... My rational side comes saying that this is just a game, but it is a game that I care in its entirely, my tears were so genuine like I was there suffering with them, and for me that's a sign that I really love this game. The twins sacrifice, that walk we've made with the memories of all the characters that we've met, I was non stop crying from here. To see Emet again, he saying all the places that there are still waiting for us to visit them, even this being some kind of a way of the DEVs saying that this game is not over, it filled my heart with happiness to know that our game will still continue, and there are a lot of adventures waiting for us still. But to know that the Ascians time has finally come to an end really hurt me, to know that all these characters won't show up anymore, its like they are ripping a part of my heart...
The Endsinger was epic, from her appearance to the fight, everything was so deserving of saying, this is the biggest enemy of mankind, and I loved it. It's suspicious to say that this was the most insane looking fight, cause it's a new content, so they had new technologies that they could apply on this, but if I say myself, that was a whole new level, better than ultimates.
We had our ending with Zenos, which was fine, it made me not wanting him to die in the end, but at least he had what he always craved for and I tend to assume that he was satisfied.
And the final scenes, with us almost dying and the Scions helping us, all of our babies crying while we were in the brink of death, another moment to warm our hearts. And the moment that I hated, where we found out that the Scions are going to disband... This had a strong impact in me, cause I always find myself thinking, we are living this adventure but what is going to happen with our group after this come to an end, and it was just as I feared. Of course they will have more chances to grow, etc. but still... My heart...
Endwalker was awesome, not perfect cause the Loporrits had an AWFUL timing on the MSQ, always coming in before the decisive things to happen, which made me hate them, also the starting of EW was a bit slow, but ofc they had to set the ground to what it was going to happen, and everything paid off in the end. Also I must say that the soundtrack for this expansion was out of this world literally, it was so good and well fitting for everything that was happening.
I started to wrote this with a horrible feeling of desolation, as my heart was so heavy, which made it difficult to put everything in words, there's so much that I'm feeling right now that I just can't describe, but after putting this out, I feel a bit better. Being able to play this game, to venture with the Scions, to defeat our enemies, to live the good and bad things with them, it was more than a pleasure, I am really thankful to the DEVs who wrote the story and made this all possible, ever since the begingin of our game, making it possible for us to care about the characters, making it possible that we could live all of this, and also for every player who just like me, played through the story, who really loves the game, thank you all guys for making this all possible. How could I not be happy after playing EW with its life lesson of not letting sorrow take over us, that things will come to an end but we are still to continue with our heads held high. Even if I'll still have this saddness inside me, for all that we've lived and cannot be lived again, I'll cherish all these moments and always remember them, hoping that the ones to come are just as memorable.
PS: I'm sorry if the text is confuse, and if there's any grammatical error, I'll have the excuse that english is not my first language