To begin, I have only been playing XIV for about 5 months total. I played WoW for about 10 years before that, and that time includes Mythic raiding and even older stuff like AQ40. I played XIV for about 3 or 4 months until the end of the final tier of Ish. Resto. (mostly MSQ and crafting), then took a break until about a month-and-a-half ago. I joined this static 2 weeks ago for a trial run. I was clear that I was new and did not have BiS gear (my weapon is only i500) or savage experience, and the static leader indicated that they just wanted to prog E9-12S before EW dropped so that we could learn to work together as a group and get some experience. The group was billed as mid-core, if it matters. The static itself is also relatively young, although it does include some vets, so it seemed like a good opportunity to learn along with the rest of the group and, personally, to learn from more experienced players.
Week one went, I thought, very well. I was getting along with everyone, and I managed to learn and clear both E9S and E10S multiple times. My parses were not good, only about 8% of total damage, but everyone told me to focus on learning the mechanics and to practice my rotation in my off time, and no one indicated that my damage was bad enough to be a deal breaker.
This week we started progging 11S, and it didn't go as well. We had multiple members misunderstand mechanics, including myself, and on the last evening I was with them everyone seemed a little sour in general. There were no heated words exchanged or anything like that, these are nice and chill people, but it was obvious that most of us were feeling tired and frustrated.
Today I received a message from the static co-lead, asking me to leave the static. The reasons cited were that my damage was so bad that it seemed like I didn't know my class, and my inability to adjust on the fly if the boss was out of position or if a critical member was dead and I had to pick up something I would normally not have to. Additionally, I was told that I was not receptive to criticism of my play, and that it seemed like I was not putting in the same effort as the rest of the group. I was caught off guard by much of this, as I felt my performance during the previous week had been a good indicator of what I am generally capable of.
So, long story short (too late), I am left wondering if A) they really wanted someone who was already up to speed and could parse better and knew the fights, B) someone didn't like me or something I said and tore me down in private instead of speaking to me, or C) I really am not good at taking feedback and just ignorant of the signals people were sending me to change my behaviour. I honestly don't know what to think right now, so if you have experience with this kind of thing I would appreciate any insight. Thanks for taking the time to read this giant novel of a post.