I wanted to take some time to expand on some personal thoughts and realizations regarding Endwalker, to thank the Development team, the Cast, and of course Spoilers will be here. In case it needs be said; TW regarding the topic of death, especially related to the Pandemic. Also this is so long it's gonna take a few posts to get it all xD But it comes from the heart.

Looking upon my life the last few years and the struggles I faced. Even before the pandemic of Covid-19 I was struggling in the retail world. It's the tired tale, I started to get wrapped up in the rush of the world and was spending less and less time with family I cared about.

My relationship with my father was always a struggle. There was a point in my life where his shortcomings as a father came to a breaking point and our relationship was in tatters. we started to finally grow close again over the course of the year before he was taken from us suddenly (Suspected blood clot) at his work's Christmas party.

The Thanksgiving before, I couldn't join him for Thanksgiving because I worked for one of the biggest retailers of the US, and I stayed home to rest instead because I was already taking Overtime. His death destroyed me, I was already burning out but this caused it all to go up in smoke and his last message not even a week before was him looking forward to seeing me for Christmas. Soon, it was my birthday in 2020 on March 5th when my Grandmother, who I was her baby she spoiled the most, passed ready for her time of rest. Then of course, Covid-19 was fully made aware to the US and quarantine started the week after as I grieved. I've lost family and close friends all as a result of this virus, 5 total, and I lost 3 more before My dad within a span of 2 years including my Step mother and one of my best friends.

In college, back in 2011, I lost my Grandfather to cancer on Nov 9th and since he was the patriarch on my mom's side of the family the Thanksgiving family time I grew to love slowly became a shell of itself. The Winter and Fall Holidays, and my favorite season of Fall, became hurtful reminders of the wounds upon my heart, of my grief.

The reason I say all this is because Playing FFXIV has been a big part of my life. I started in Open Beta if I recall correctly, I know it was in early ARR and I took forever to level in my struggles as Early White Mage. I almost quit in the 30 Stretch, back then the best way to level was fate grinding in Coerthas and it took hours to get to Darkhold's level, but I've stayed and fell absolutely in love with being a Warrior of Light.

With every expansion I grew to love the story more and more, so much I became a Twitch Content Creator to share my Journey and make a community where I can help others in their Journey to become a WoL. Endwalker came at the right time for me.