So I was playing the story line quests and i meet someone who is on the same quest as me now. He's very friendly and wants to help and i stay in a party with him. But i'm a lonewolf. I don't like being friends with people because i dont want to disappoint people, and with having friends there are some expectations and i dont want those expectations because i dont want to fail them and disappoint people. So I always keep to myself. Well ten minutes in the group my laptop crashed as its prone to crashing and happens quite a lot when i play this game.

So I thought to myself well this is an excuse not to log on and he'll lose interest in me and i get to keep to myself when i log in later. But I feel guilty because I do this with everyone. I would like friends and be like a normal person but it just seems like i'm not. Family blames my aspergers but i dont like that defining me or used as a clutch to give anything an excuse in what i do. Has anyone gone through this in life and have any solutions as of right now all i feel like i should do is be alone as that would be the best for everyone.