No Cyan in the top 30 of that Niconico poll.
Never liked popularity contests. Still don't. *Impresario facepalm*
Oh well, real(first/old) fans have been on the fringes the whole time anyway.
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Going mildly crazy this holiday season. My brothers visit every year, and every year without fail, my girlfriend gets upset that I spend too much time with them and not enough time with her all of a sudden. Every year I cuddle and console her that it's only two weeks. They visit once a year. Things will go back to normal, and I'll still see you almost every night even while they are here. Every year my oldest brother gets overly bent out of shape about it saying that she's overreacting. Every year there's weird tension and pointless silent drama, and I feel like I'm in a tug of war and I'm the rope.
This year she's so upset though, that she's taking some opportunity which I don't know if it's manufactured. But her friend in the army's family has someone that can't fly out to visit her friend for new years, so she's gonna go visit her instead of having our 4th anniversary date day. She says the plane will get back in the afternoon on the 31st, but even if it's on time, that means she's not back till evening, and will probably be too exhausted to stay up and toast each other, among other things. It's exceptionally vexing, because I asked her if she had any New Years plans or any possible ones several times throughout the fall and earlier this month. Each time it was no, nothing, and that one year that there was something was a one time thing etc. I was going to propose on our anniversary, and I still want to propose, but part of me kind of just wants to trash the ring and forget about it.
Just kinda feels like, maybe I'm an easy read, and she knows I'm gonna propose. I wasn't exactly trying to hide it, but I didn't just tell her outright. Feels like she's scared. I guess that's OK. I will get my answer one way or the other. Just... I don't think I'll ever recover if the answer's no.