I've noticed my obsessive tendencies seem to be getting worse. I should probably see a doctor at some point about it, I guess. Sometimes it's gotten really bad, and I mean I actually can't sleep because I'll be obsessing over one thing or another for hours. It's really had an affect on my game play as well.
During this lull until EW, I'm reminded why I do not play games with battlepass systems. For example, I kept playing Warframe long after I got tired of it a month ago, just to finish their 'nightwave' season on the correct number - because it shows what you got in prior seasons. It's not just that though, in RPG games it's actually horrific. I'll delete a 100 hour save and redo it all the 'right' way if something that happened along the way is 'wrong'. Been playing Skyrim lately, and I'll reload a save over and over and over just so I can approach a conversation the 'right' way, or if I did something out of order - that's a deleted character. I deleted a character the other day I spent 30 hours on due to this.
Endwalker can't come fast enough, I just want to sit here obsessing over new matching glams or something minor. At least then, it's persistent and I don't waste so much time. I remember people talking in the past about me calling FFXIV my "main" game, or rather how it shouldn't really be a main game or something like that. I literally can't have more than one "main" online game, because I actually don't have the time (or money) to continuously obsess over things in more than one.
This reminds me, this was a thing even back when I was playing SWTOR as a late teen. I would be called slow constantly by clanmates when we'd be leveling new alt characters. Due to that games RPG nature, I would play it like an RPG. This means me deleting characters if I did something 'wrong', watching and reading every single dialogue - whether I've seen it before on a prior character or not, matching outfits, etc. I can't imagine playing that with the even worse tendencies I have now!FFXIV has been fairly accommodating for me in comparison. I mean, except for my past fantasia spending, and that time I was trying to get a house. It's probably one of the least stressful games I can play.