I don't get off on bashing people in the slightest. In fact, I've only ever lost my temper and berated someone ingame once, and I started playing at CE release. There are any number of players I get angry at for various reasons, sure, but I know how to keep my complaints to myself, linkshell chat, voice chat, whatever. So know that what I'm about to say to you doesn't come from some desire to "bash" you, but because I think it needs to be said.

Now, I get that you're bipolar and that you've been through some rough times, but as much as those might be explanations for your behaviour, they aren't excuses, and it seems like you're trying to brush away personal responsibility with your post. The fact of the matter is that you seem more intent on fishing for sympathy than showing contrition (car crashes are never good, but how does one from 2006 relate to anything on an FF14 forum?), and that's not only irresponsible, but quite honestly insulting towards those who don't let such conditions and experiences affect their interactions with others. You're still in full control over whether to click submit for your posts, and if you aren't, you should be seeking professional help, not immersing yourself in an MMO. If you're truly sorry, then show it through your actions, not through your statements, because like the poster above me said, few people are going to offer sympathy when you act this way.