Yea I can understand that feeling. I just never have been aspired by much until I think of the brotherhood and bond of being in the service. Reminds me of times when I played on the my old H.S. football team. There were good and bad times but in the end we stuck together like brothers. Normally when someone asks me what do I want to do they throw a bunch of possible "what ifs" to oppose it. I just don't dwell on it and accept all the possible goods and bads that will come.
Since it's the only thing that leads me with aspirations I feel if I don't pursue it I will be lost among nothingness.