Like, the idea of the game originally was that we were the "Warriors of Light". Even described in Carteneau in plural, that they couldn't remember us, but that we were legion.
And of course, it's neat the the use of the default Midlander as a stand-in for the Warrior of Light has been a tradition since 1.0. It's nice that you can chart them since the very beginning as the face of Final Fantasy XIV.
But as time has gone on, Ardbert has been introduced, mirroring the exact team as shown in promotional materials, a Midlander man with short brown hair, a Lalafell with blonde twintails, ect.
Coupled with the inherent problem of MMORPG storytelling where a multitude of players share a very specific, linear, one person story of being the "chosen one", that should be exclusive to one player and doesn't make sense between multiple players. Not a problem unique to Final Fantasy XIV by any means, but a problem with the entire genre, themeparks especially.
But it all comes together to make me feel like an impostor. Not only do I have the strange ORPG cognitive dissonance of having a mutually exclusive and unique story shared with every other player. But every time I see Ardbert, I think upon the many increasingly impressive promotional trailers, featuring the Warriors of Light. And I feel even less canonical than before.
It makes me feel like an impostor. And I'm starting to get a strange sense of derealization. I feel like a Lalafell woman pretending to go through the story of Midlander male's. I don't feel like I'm a Warrior of Light. In every cutscene, I feel like a Midlander Man who looks like Ardbert was supposed to be here.